I wonder if it's human nature to want to change. I don't mean moving across the world or getting plastic surgery, although that's what it may mean for some people. I mean becoming someone different. A different personality, a different set of skills. And I wonder if everybody else struggles with the want to change as much as I do.
I recently went to a family reunion and got to hang out with some members of the family that I hadn't seen in five years. That's alot of time. Alot of time to change. It was so awesome to see people mature, to see their life stories continually develop.
And even I have changed from five years ago. God's done alot of stuff in me and outside of me. But if that's what I'm focusing on, is that the right focus? If I'm focusing on changing solely to look different to others, is that the right motive?
Shouldn't I be focused on changing so that God looks different to others? So that His message is increasingly clear?
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I spend alot of time in the past, thinking about how 'far' I've come. I want to change that. I want to change because Jesus loves people. I want to change for Jesus because I want to love people. I don't know if that makes sense to you, but it is making more and more sense to me every day. Change for me tends to be for selfish reasons. The kind of change that Jesus is into is never for selfish reasons.
Change me, Jesus.
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